Dour time measured in children’s pastels strips away at the truth
In time lost, black and white are crushed and swirled,
Becoming gray, without thought or feeling
Locked up inside myself I call, yearning to touch hot flesh to cold steel
To bring me back to myself, facing me inside
And yet I run away, screaming, stripped away from within
Pain blossoms, writhing and tearing me apart
It fades, and I fight, this is no end, the night is mine.
I ran away, from myself, becoming black and white
When nothing happens, the colors fade away, becoming gray
This will not be the end
The pain is what you make it
Step into the changes and throw away your empty heart right now
This is your chance to become you
Ignoring a kaleidoscope of gray,
I search for black and white in the blur
Right now, I search for myself against a backdrop of pain
Fool searching, trying to become wise, trapped inside a body which is not mine.
I never want to leave this place,
Safe within myself, trapped by gray and seeking black eclipses.
I’m getting buried in this place
Beyond the rubble, shifting promises,
Something eats away at the lies,
Revealing my coffin inside.
Changes evoke a miasma of thoughts and feelings bloom,
But within myself, I don’t care
I swear, if I were dead, I don’t care
This is the end.
Digging, digging, searching,
Oranges on a grape vine scream as the flesh cuts, melting steel
I would have never thought
This pain is what you make it,
Singing an anthem to the lonely
Rip out my heart and offer it as your sacrifice.
This is something to scream about in the gray locks
And this cannot be the end.
Out there, someone is searching, but in here, I hide
Safe within myself
Right now I see it in a different way,
Face pressed and arms bleeding I scream out against the pain
For all it does, I am lost without myself
I’m tempted to give into the end.
But it’s too soon, it cannot fade,
So I begin to run again,
Through the lies and truths, melting metal encasing soft oranges
And blossoming dreams caught in a wildfire
I flee, deeper and deeper, through the fading dreams crackling through the burning
Incomplete, I’m searching,
End in end I fall, tumbling and crashing
Through an endless doorway, watching myself descend,
Through the wells of madness.
There’s a danger at the end, a shaking of sanity, the end calls
Flesh and blade, flame and rose-white petals reaching a floor far below me,
Swallowed by this disco ball my life has become, reflections spinning me into walls,
When it hits, the war begins.
I cannot stand alone, I will be washed away, something that never existed,
Pounding, my heart, the blood in my veins pools around me,
I am an angel in a halo of blood
The war has already begun
Fingers grasp, my hand connects, eyes meet
Slammed into the wall, suspended in the void, above is my savior,
World rending, parting, I have run away, followed by the eater of lies,
We have traversed the melting gray,
And here, at my end, they have reached out for me,
This will not be the end for me
Incomplete, I have with me, a disco ball sends shards slicing our skin,
Yet he stands, a King in my world, reaching for me, skin on skin,
Pulled me from the edge.
Shadows behind him manifest, eyes wide, others stand.
The world is melting away, yet betrayal does not come.
We run away, from the pain, incomplete, searching
Through the gray, the night is fading, but we remain.
A king stands black to black, standing lonely,
Surrounding are the roiling shadows
Wings stretch far above our heads, and below the disco ball shreds to dust.
Right now I see it all in a different way.
I stand lonely, until the hand is outstretched,
A life-line, a way home.
Running away, from myself, to some new day,
Singing, the ruby flames engulf the dreams, and I laugh,
The eater consumes the lies and I am alive.
I don’t care, we will leave this all behind,
And this is not going to be the end.